Again with the opposite marriage.

There's that video I was talking about the other night. "I believe that marriage should be between a man and a woman... no offense to anyone out there."

I can't understand how there are still people out in the world who don't understand that marriage, a legal institution, should not and cannot discriminate based on sexual orientation-- based on the sex of the person you are in love with. It's absurd, ridiculous, and hateful. I was raised in an Evangelical Christian church, and while I don't currently attend, nor do I preach or evangelize, I had never been taught that God hated anyone. I mean, I never heard anything in church growing up about queer people. All I ever heard in church was that God loves everyone, and those who accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior will go to heaven. But nothing about "the gays."

Outside of church, sure. My mom, to this day, calls things "gay," and while I know she doesn't hate or wish harm to anyone in the queer community, things like that indicate a bigger problem. The fact that people actually clapped and cheered when Miss California stated her views... it is entirely unacceptable. Yes, let's cheer and clap for discrimination! Whee!

It's ok. The same people will feel like idiots in a decade or so, when we look back at the rights that the queer community were denied. Not that intolerance or hatred will die out, but that things will change. Like how now it seems so absurd that in the 60's, people had to sit, drink, or eat somewhere else based on the color of their skin. I really hope that I live to see a day where discrimination against queer people is no longer legal or acceptable. Where equal rights actually happen across the country. That'd be great. Plus... what if I fall in love and want to get married? I should be able to do it, regardless of the sex of the person I love.

Entropy

I was recently reading about the concept of entropy.

Entropy, for those unfamiliar with the concept, is the dissolution of any organization into a state of disorder and indifferentiation. Basically the idea that everything will break down into (I love this phrase) "terminal sameness." Time decays everything and eventually energy will leave all systems.

This is how I feel about my life right now. I'm a senior in college, ambling through my last month of classes. As an art major, a lot of my life in the last four years has been focused around creating things and exploring ideas. As I reach the end of my time with studios I can use for free, I should want to use them to their fullest extent, right?

Well. I think entropy has set into my system. I have no ideas for anything new, and have no drive to continue creating or making things. It makes me question my place in the world as an "artist." I suppose, though, that it's the natural progression of things. Naturally, after years of wrestling with the same problems and being in a high-stress environment, one will run out of energy. Everything will dissolve into terminal sameness.

Entropy and burnout-- along with energy and motivation-- are two things that have been weighing heavily on my mind lately. What I'm seeking is to avoid the former and gain the latter. I'm not sure how it will work out, and I'm certainly looking for ideas. I'm hoping the warm, sunny weather this weekend will help.

(More than likely, it will just make distraction worse. But I can hope, can't I?)

opposite marriage?

"we live in a country where you can choose same sex marriage or opposite marriage."

um.

what? opposite marriage?

courtesy of one of the miss USA's q&a portion. she then went on to say that she does not believe in gay marriage. what a dipshit.

i'm a bad feminist.

i'm watching the miss USA competition. i'm mostly watching it because when i turned on my tv, they were panning over the Strip in Vegas, and... well...

i want to go to there.

so now i'm watching freakishly orange women parade around a stage in very little clothing. or i would be, if my antenna and converter box would, um, work again.

oh, god, it's the bathing suit competition. the thing about miss USA is that there is literally no part of it that could be construed as "not objectifying women." there is no talent portion, there is almost no question-and-answer section... it's just hot women parading around a stage in various outfits to pop music.

i wonder what the winner of miss USA actually wins.

oh. a mikimoto pearl tiara, a 2-year scholarship to the NY film academy, and eveningwear. i see.

i swear i'm not usually this vapid.

oh, who am i kidding?